Sunday, October 04, 2009

An outlet. HA.

4:39 am.

Hello, insomnia. I thought you had left the building? Great to have you back again.

If you own emotions and revelations that you never share with anyone, do they really exist?

If your outlet isn't private, can it truly be an outlet?

What do I do with these revelations?

How do I process my feelings if I am unable to discuss them with anyone?

I don't know where to go from here...

23 comments:

Mom24 said...

I'm not sure I have words to express how much I get this. (((hugs)))

Gucci Mama said...

Me too, Mom24.

Love to you.

Julie {Angry Julie Monday} said...

Yes, I have issues with sleep all the time. Sometimes, my thoughts don't fit with my blog and/or other things in my life.

I mentally write up blog posts in my head, and then think about who's blog I could guest post on.

Yep, I'm random.

apathy lounge said...

I have similar issues...and they make me crazy.

Manic Mommy said...

I have a journal for the stuff that just doesn't fit. Either that or I'll just type a big Word document that never goes anywhere except my hard drive. At least it's out of my head and I can sleep.

Issa said...

okay first HUGE HUGS. second, yes, if you own it, it is real...no matter who knows. trust me on this one.

three, i owe you an email. i've been wanting to write you, since your comment at my place. am very behind. but i have been thinking about you.

Lastly, maybe writing something and posting in anonymously would help? I have some ideas if you want/need them.

sheila said...

Insomnia makes us think too much. Sometimes I write stuff down. Look at it with fresh eyes later and burn it.

Hope you have a good sleep 2nite

anymommy said...

I'm another one with a bedside notebook. And hugs and love and chocolate and coffee dates sent your way.

Tracie said...

I have insomnia issues as well. I totally get this.

CaraBee said...

I started another, anonymous blog with the intention of posting about all the stuff I didn't want any of my real life people to know. I never really use it, though. The feelings are real, though.

Unknown said...

self-proclaimed therapists hiding behind the anonymity of the internet who can only offer personal opinions based on their personal experiences will simply delay the inevitable meltdown. if your thoughts, emotions, feelings, are as real as you describe and not just blogging hype to garner readership, you need to seek professional help. anything less is an injustice to yourself and those in your responsibility.

Unknown said...

You DO know you can call me, right? Anytime. Well, ALMOST any time - I do need to sleep. Or you can email me. I'll listen.

SPEAKING FROM THE CRIB said...

whine wine whine wine whine wine milk whine hope that cheers you up

Life Laugh Latte said...

I am lucky that sleeping issues only come up for me a couple of times a year. But they bring so much anxiety with them don't they. Praying for restful nights for you. Holly at lifelaughlatte.blogspot.com

Mama Goose said...

I hope you can find a better outlet. And when you do can you let me know? My overactive brain has been waking me at roughly 2:23 am for the past few weeks. It's getting old.

Hope you're feeling better soon.

Debbie said...

(((Big Hig)))

Private writings, whether in a journal kept in my bedstand, or in typed, unpublished documents on my computer.

Seeing it in writing often brings clarity.

Ruby said...

I'll be your outlet. E-mail me:)

Elisa @ Globetrotting in Heels said...

I get what you are saying, oh, I so get it - now more than ever. Solution: start a locked, private blog, sort of an online journal, or send you posts to Secret Spineless Whine or The Basement or one of the blogs where you can post anonymously.

Or e-mail a trusted friend and share what's ailing you.

I'm here if you need me. Love and hugs!

AiringMyLaundry said...

I'm so sorry about the insomnia. That would stink.

Elisa @ Globetrotting in Heels said...

Ok, wow. Excuse me, "fourre-tout"??

That was very bitchy. Please refrain from posting comments unless you can be supportive, no one likes a patronizing hag. And if you post something hurtful on my friend's blog again I might just have to thump you. Just sayin'.

Cynthia said...

I had a stretch of insomnia...self imposed from a scary movie:(


We going out on the 7th?

Momisodes said...

I'm so sorry to hear it's back. I can certainly relate to this these days. It can certainly drive you mad.

Lifeofkaylen said...

I can't even imagine having insomnia...I sometimes wish I could get by on 3 or 4 hours sleep, but really, sleep is one of the best indulgences that isn't regulated by the FDA.
Hope things get better soon!

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