Wednesday, April 01, 2009

No April Fools...

You know, we are all fooled into thinking that granite is so hard, it's impenetrable.

We look at the sky and believe that it's protective shield will never falter.

We all look at the earth and KNOW that it's violently moving underneath our feet, but the motions are (for most of us) unnoticeable. This gives us the illusion that "our" world won't ever shake and quake. That the earthquakes, ozone holes, and shattered granite floors could never happen to US...

So when you experience that first tremor, the fear you feel isn't so much from the unmovable which is now moving. It's from the knowledge that there ARE no guarantees on this living, breathing planet. And that if the dirt beneath your feet can shift so easily today, it can happen again, and again, and again...

Being a grown-up can really suck, you know? I could really use a good blankie and my mommy to brush my hair. Instead, I am serving my SEVEN year old his birthday pancakes and pretending everything's ok... I am also wishing for that false feeling of anonymity that the internet used to offer me.

If you want to read something that's NOT fraught with metaphors, check out my article at Root & Sprout's April issue.

9 comments:

Badness Jones said...

Uh oh. I hope the world feels brighter soon - you're right that nothing in this world is guaranteed, but I'm trying really hard to hold on to the positive right now. Hugs!

And happy birthday Evan!

Mom24 said...

(((Hugs))) Hope things are feeling more stable again soon.

I regret losing my anonymity as well. It's much easier when we can just "be" without worrying about who might read it.

Type (little) a said...

Oh Tracey, I know.

I know I know I know I know. I want my blankie, too.

Hugs.

Stephanie said...

I know exactly how you feel. Exactly.

Best to you ;)

Lisa Jo Rudy said...

Hoo boy. Was feeling just those feelings yesterday, reflecting on relatives who are gone... and realizing that I'M now the one who's in charge of making a safe, secure place for my family.

Yipes!

Luckily, there are so many little ways to make it happen... like playing together, baking together, making sure we eat dinner together. It's the "power of small" that seems to make it possible.

Lisa

Kami's Khlopchyk said...

Oh no, I don't like the sound of all those metaphors. I hope things are okay. Hang in there...

anymommy said...

I hope the earth stabilizes for you very, very soon. Until then, find a doorway and just sit awhile.

Nap Warden said...

I'm feeling unstable for you...hope things work out:)

Tonya said...

I've been feeling like that the last few days.

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