Friday, March 07, 2008

No title...

So, I looked up from my book, The Amber Spyglass, and saw Corinne happily eating her lunch with a spoon. Went back to reading to realize that nothing she was eating for lunch required a spoon! She had strawberries, grapes, a blueberry bar.... Why the spoon?

Ah, well. Ahem. In my quest for "Mother of the Year," I had given her a small serving of sugar to dip the strawberries in (because, really? At this time of the year, the berries NEED that sugar). Corinne decided to just bypass that whole vitamin C fest and just go straight for the sugar. Yes. I served my 2 year old sugar with a spoon for lunch.

The really bad part? The worst is that I just shrugged and went back to my book....
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Thank God it's FRIDAY! Especially THIS Friday, because I get to go shopping at my favorite bi-annual clothing sale. I sure know how to kick up my heels, eh? Gonna scour through used clothing for a summer wardrobe for my little girl who is officially just as tall as her cousin that used to pass clothes down to us.... Sigh. No more hand-me-downs.

Oh, and for the record: I did my errands yesterday. The kids, wary of my vacant stare and stringy hair, behaved beautifully and I got a small dose of vitamin D from that late winter sun. I even managed to not get angry at anyone. Instead of feeling like this, I now feel like this.
Meh.

I broke down last night when Patrick asked to go out for the weekend in April... The reason? Mainly because I feel as though he gets tons of opportunities to live the "free" life. To be able to just up and go. He goes fishing every year with his Dad. He takes overnights with my brother-in-law to see concerts (that I'd like to attend, too, if given notice...). He "gets" to go on business trips, which he may say aren't all fun and happy, but I would LOVE to find out for myself. The last time I ever went ANYwhere by myself? Really, REALLY by myself? Um.... Never? Yeah. Never. I have never gone on a trip, an excursion, anything that was strictly for myself and by myself. I'm thinking BlogHer '08 sounds mighty tempting. But can I bring myself to spend the money on myself? With nothing gained other than time alone? I'm thinking it's something that I just need to suck up and do....

Well! Aren't I just a ray of sunshine? I'm sure I've scared off any potential new readers that may have stopped by, and I'm sorry for that... it is what it is.

20 comments:

Type (little) a said...

I hear you about the husband thing. When we are trying to get out the door, and he is making us late AGAIN, I often want to scream at him "All you have to do is get yourself ready! How hard is that??"

In many ways, and in everyday life, all he is responsible for is himself. And I often feel very taken for granted because of it.

BUT, your hair looks great, so the hell with the rest of it, right?

Happy Weekend.

Mom24 said...

I think you should GO FOR IT. Live virariously for us. I'm amazed at how much easier it is to be a dad!

The only important thing about lunch is if she doesn't know you saw her just eating the sugar with a spoon, as long as she doesn't know, it's all good. I hope the book is good.

We're having the storm of the century, so it will be a LONG weekend. 3 weeks of flu in February, now snow, snow, snow. No wonder I've got the blues.

Kai said...

Your hair does look fantastic!

If you ever want to escape to NYC you can! I'll take you in for a night!

Tonya said...

Can I just say that I LOVE your honesty. I completely understand the not going anywhere alone. My hubby takes fishing trips with his dad and he says, "well you do fun stuff with the kids while I'm gone that I would of liked to do with them too." My response, "Maybe you shouldn't go with your dad and instead come with us." The burger!

Tonya said...

Oh yeah I forgot to mention we should really meet in person sometime. I just have a feeling you live close, even though I have no idea where you live!

Tricia said...

I'm thinking about blogher too- especially since it is only 3 hours away- it's a little scary though all those bloggers in one place...! Oh, and it's not just dads- wives do it to.

It's just the drain of being a stay at home parent. They get a weekend- us, not so much. You know?

Lis Garrett said...

A lot of us echo your feelings. My husband travels a lot, and I dread the time he is away. Do I tell him? NOOOOO. Because I don't want people to think I can't handle being a single parent from 5 days at a time. It's rough not being able to get away . . .

Oh, I caught Bridget eating sugar with a spoon the other day. Great two-year-old minds think alike!

Kristi said...

Sometimes I serve my daughter a bowl of fruit and a teething biscuit for dinner, simply because I don't have the energy to get her to eat her vegetables. So, I can join your mother of the year club!

And I resent my husband's free time too. He's visited a friend out-of-state, and has gone on a few business trips too. I don't get the same time away. As for BlogHer, you should go. Seriously. You deserve it.

Anonymous said...

I'm down with BlogHer '08! Now, to find the money for the flight...hmmm...

We'll have to talk bunking if you're serious about going. I'm telling you, YOU. WILL. LOVE. IT. Plus, there will be collective mom blog parties to attend. Can I get a woot woot?!

Tracey said...

I totally didn't realize that my family vacation is scheduled for that week. Damn.

Hannah said...

LOL at sugar & a spoon for lunch. It's all good.

I seriously think you need to go on a girlie weekend!! PRONTO!! Just organise it and tell DH you're going. You deserve a break every now and then too!!!!

Alex Elliot said...

Fantastic book! If it makes you feel better, I let my kids eat fruit roll ups today, yes even my 20 month old, and they are essentially sugar.

Ruby said...

I love the pictures!

Mom not Mum said...

I totally understand - last time I went anywhere without ANY kids was to a funeral - that hardly counts as fun. Get out your calendar and find a date and something fun to do and just DO IT!

And are you saying sugar for lunch is wrong? Guess we'll have to switch back to chocolate syrup.

Not Your Regular Mini Van Mom said...

I try and have a girls weekend once every six months. I need it, and afterward I am so much more patient and happier. A break without hubby or kids can sometimes be a good thing! I think you should go to Blogher 08...it sounds like fun :)

Family Adventure said...

GO, GO, GO! The first time is the hardest, but you should definitely book a trip away. To BlogHer, or with a girlfriend to a fun destination. Anything...It is easier to be generous with your husband's getaways if you get to have some, too.

And the sugar story - I loved that you went back to reading instead of doing the dreary mommy preaching thing :)

Heidi

cltgrace said...

Welcome to the party! What a great opportunity to make some new bloggy friends!

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30 Minute Mommy said...

You should take a trip for yourself! Heck- I'm gonna book a trip for myself to Mexico right now. I wish!

Anonymous said...

I fed my 2 year old strawberries with sugar yesterday! She did eat most of the strawberries but then I watched her run her fingers all through the sugar & spread it all over the the plate & much of the table. And I just watched. :)

And then later I asked my husband to clean up the mess...

I rock.

Christina said...

Come to BlogHer! It will be one of the best "just-for-you" vacations you'll ever take. Not only will you hang out with so many awesome blogging women, you'll learn a ton, too.

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