Sunday, July 26, 2009

Twisted Sister Soldier...*

Conflicted, conflicted. So twisted up inside...

Did I have a good time at BlogHer? Yes. I did. It was nice. Met some wonderful women. Have some faces to put to the blog headers now. I experienced kindness in faces I had been only imagining for 3 years.

Certain family issues were occuring while I was in Chicago, though. And my absence during those situations became heavier on my shoulders the closer I got to home. The guilt I own over that absence is monumental and deafening.

I have a thousand posts in my head. I have a thousand brilliant, ingenious, never-before-seen spins on topics that will surely astound your brains. I have pictures of women I now hold as Friends with a capital F. I have cute stories and funny quips on how we never really leave high shool too far behind.

But not now.

Now, I must turn off this computer, withOUT checking all of your updates. Now, I need to figure some things out in silence, and dig through the mountain of responsibilities and issues that rest upon our shoulders.

Bear with me, old friends and new.

*For Cynthia. :)

8 comments:

Tonya said...

can't wait to hear you thoughts in your head!

L~ said...

peace to you while you think...

Kamis Khlopchyk said...

Ditto what L said. I am anxiously awaiting your BlogHer experience but also wishing you well in your personal matters.

Godspeed Tracey!

CaraBee said...

Oh honey, I'm sorry your weekend was marred by discord. It was absolutely wonderful hanging out with you, though! I'm so glad you came! I can't wait to hear your thoughts on the whole experience.

Take all the time you need, my friend, I'm here if you need anything. TRULY.

Marinka said...

I'm so sorry. It was wonderful to meet you and laugh with you. I'm sorry that your heart is heavy now.

JC said...

things will work out. glad you got to go experience that. it is exciting to get out of the box every once in a while. hope your week is great! :) Jennifer

mep said...

I am really glad to be one of your new friends and wish you strength and clarity and peace of mind.

Debbie said...

I'm sorry. I hope things start to look brighter soon for you.

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